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I been M.I.A for some time.
Last week was finals week so you college folks know how that is.
I was placed in a Group for my final project. Even though I Really didn’t want to be..but I was tardy, for class & didn’t really have a choice..on anything really. Last weekend was pretty balling Loren had a 96 since he was in the Field for two weeks. We just relaxed, had a bunch of sexy time, cuddled naked watching lost, and drank a few spritzers by the pool & cooked out with some friends. We also have been car shopping. It’s time we get a second car. I start message therapy school in a week in a half , so I can learn Reflexology, and aromatherapy, before I start going to school to get my masters. I don’t know where my senior year of college went, but it’s over. With a certificate in message therapy I have the opportunity to be making more money than Loren. We like the idea, because Loren wont have to reenlist! making this last 9 months our last 9 months with the marine corps fuckary! I do appreciate what the marine corps have done for us..it’s just not for us. If everything goes to plan. Loren & I will be living in the mountains of Colorado, planting our gardens, sitting by a warm fire sipping on whiskey, and play fighting naked in our new home. Loren wants to go to school for business and Herbal/Nutritional Consultant. We have a friend going to go school to become HYPNOTHERAPIST who also loves Colorado. So we all being certified in all areas of the healing arts we would like to start our own business! Currently Colorado/ California is the perfect places that has a high demand for those things..So everything is going to be perfect. Loren & I’s wedding anniversary is coming up..again! He will be home for it!! It’s so easy being married to him. We just work…& it’s perfect..he’s perfect, our lives are going according to plan. Everything is just perfect.. Did I mention that he’s perfect?

I had the BEST sex last night/ this morning…So great I might have to sanitary every room in the house…especially, the counter tops….

Yeah, that unpleasant bump, that makes it hard to swallow, sometimes hard to breathe depending on how much anxiety is pumping through my veins from missing him….

Even though I tasted his lips on mine not even 10 minutes ago..knowing Tomorrow, it will only be just a longing for more…I hate the way it teases me. knowing I wont feel them tomorrow..or the next day…or next week..hopefully next month, but that’s still way to long..

I know I have waited longer, but right now it feels surreal…I guess the reality of it is..In this life we live…Missing him is always going to be the challenge..& accepting that reality is even harder…

I will be alone..my hunk of a Husbee is in the field..so we will have extra special date night on Saturday!
Friday all the Valentines day shit will be on sale! So its kind of a win win! Fuck you hallmark, and your stupid holidays! You should treat your lover special everyday!

Loren,and I before bed last night:

Loren: I’m not looking forward to driving the CO around tomorrow

Me: I know babe, but your just so darn easy to like :)

Loren: Yup the trick is to smile, nod and say big words

Me:” that’s awkward.” * start’s smiling, and nodding* “hippopotamus”

NO! Mother,NO Aunt, NO sister!

I am a 21 year old womenish/lady. No 21 year old should be ‘trying’ to have a baby on purpose. I know military relationships move faster, than most, but not us. I will have my degrees soon enough. hopefully, at this rate, a little bit before Lorens getting out date. We will travel. I will be his sugar mama….he can take a paid vacation…or he can reenlist….it is up to him…all I want is to give him a choice. He has done so much for us…and he is beautiful…so he deserves it. Besides we have a life time to spend together….my eggs will be fresh and running well for the next decade….I just want to mature naturally….have as much fun as possible, with my best friend..move to Colorado…settle down…plan a pregnancy…. But… For now I would rather not have a little bundle of joy….but if it happens…it happens..& it would be the most beautiful creature on the planet.